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I regret not going to retreat. Everyone came back a new person & I'm SOOOO sad to say I missed that important part of my senior year. Everyone came back talking about all the teachers' stories, their little RAPS & their apologies. & I really sat in every class thinking of all the apologies I would've done if I went on retreat...

*NOTE: some may go to school, some may be old people, some you may have no idea.

1. I'm sorry I take you for granted. You honestly are the greatest person to step onto this planet. Although I get on your nerves everyday & you tell me to shut up, you let it blow over & you're ALWAYS there when I need you. I never get the chance to tell you how sorry I am for all the shit I put you through & I know you just go to your significant OTHER & just complain about how annoying & how immature & how I make stupid mistakes all the time. I just hope you know you really are the most influential person in my life & I continuously talk about how proud of you I am & hope that one day you could say the same for me. I may act stupid sometimes when it comes to planning my future ONLY because it cracks me up how stupid you think I am! But I just want to apologize to you for how much of my CRAP you put up with. So I just wanna give you a big SORRY, THANK YOU, & I LOVE YOU.

2. I'm sorry I'm never there. You have been there through 3/4 of my life & your just the most dependable person out there for me other than the one placed above. I wish I could go back through my high school years & just be more of a friend to you. You have been more than a friend & sometimes it's like your my baby sister. When I'm at your house, I just feel so comfortable & at home. I'm sorry that I haven't been exactly the greatest friend ONLY because my stupidass listens to what people say & because I'm so easily persuaded by other people's thoughts. I thought you were the enemy. But shit, was I wrong. I'm so sorry for everything & I hope that college DEFINITELY won't split us apart. I already know we're stronger than that & that we WILL grow up together & you ALWAYS will be the biggest part of my life. I wish I had spent most of my senior year with you because you seriously just crack me up with your slowness & how you never know what's going on. I love you soooo much & I hope you know it!

3. I'm sorry I flake. Seriously I just wish you knew the real thing. It's not that I do it on purpose, it's just that I never know if you ever really want me around. But I do know that now because you have told me & we have so much coming up ahead of us & I'm excited for what is to come. I'm sorry that harsh words were placed upon everything & I hope you know that I would never say ANYTHING to hurt your feelings. Your just so upbeat & happy that I would never want to crush that & ruin it for you. I'm sorry I haven't been the greatest friend out there for you. You deserve so much that I haven't been offering to you. You always seem to have my back & I wish I could make it seem to you that I will always have yours. You have grown so much through all the hard treatment your parents & boys & even bitches have given you & I just want to let you know I'm proud of you& proud to see how strong of a person you are. I'm also sorry things have changed. I know they changed in the past & now we're trying to make things go back to normal. But really, I'm so sorry. & I loooooooooove you, tambien! [=

4. I'm sorry for all the shit I put you through. I'm sorry I put you through sleepless nights & though days you can't even think, walk, or talk straight. I know you care about me so much & I just take all that for granted. You tell me that you even care about me than you do yourself & I never had ANYONE in their lives say that to me. You really have made a huge impact in my life & I can't even see myself without you as a friend or anything else. I really hope what the future has in hold for us has us together no matter what. I'm also sorry for all the times you think I'm never listening but really I AM. I just never know what to say in response to your deeeeeep thoughts & apologies. I'm also sorry we never fight. If we fought more maybe we would learn how to solve our problems quicker & I wouldn't just wanna BOUNCE like I always do. I'm sorry that I always think your up to no good. I've been such a stickler lately that I don't even realize how big of a bitch I am to you. You seriously put up with every little shit I throw at you & I just want you to know how much I appreciate you in my life & that I love you NO MATTER WHAT I say. & I also want to apologize in ahead for some of the harsh things I might say in the future. You know I'll wake up & won't even remember what I said. I just get so heated that my words are as bitchy as the way I'm acting. So yeah, sorry. LOVE YOU foreverrrrr.

5. I'm sorry for sophomore year. Sorry I'm your bully. Sorry I'm a bitch to you & you probably go home with bruises on your arm. Sorry for not talking to you for a whole year, I should've been smarter. & I'm sorry if I'm on the list of people that get on your nerves. Ya know I don't mean it! I'm sorry sorry sorry & I LOVE YOU!

6. I'm sorry for all the shit I put you through in the past. Seriously, you didn't deserve it. You were the nicest & best person you could be for me but I just brushed that away & didn't even realize it. I took everything for granted & was so naiive. I'm also sorry for talking so much shit about what happened after. Sorry for making you look like the "bad guy" in front of my friends & family. You really didn't deserve that & I take the blame for everything that happened between us. I'm sorry I did the MOST SHADY shit that ANYONE could do to another person. You REALLY didn't deserve that. You gave me everything you could & I just couldn't see that. I'm also sorry for being a BIGGIDY bitch to you. I seriously was the biggest bitch to you & you were my best friend. Like you DEFINITELY didn't deserve that either. I'm sorry I took everything we had together for granted & sorry that you lost all trust & respect for me as a person. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

7. I'm also sorry to you about sophomore-junior year. We never got close again until summer before senior year. & I thank GOD for giving me that opportunity again. You honestly are one of my closest friends & I trust you with EVERYTHING. I honestly could tell you ANYTHING & know that my confidential information will not be spread. You are such a beautiful person inside & out. I wish I had realized that in the past because then our friendship could be STRONGER. Damn imagine though?! Shit would be crazy. I'm sorry for only taking one side & for any harsh things you heard me say or whatever. I'm sorry for not listening to your side of the story. I also want to say THANK YOU for just dropping everything. Because you really were the bigger person in this situation & if it wasn't for you being the bigger & stronger person we may not even be friends today. & seriously, without you in my senior year really would be different. You laugh at everything I say & you really are an ego-booster for me. You make me feel good about myself & there DEFINITELY needs to be more people like you in this world. & I love you. Hehe.

8. I'm sorry for making you look like a bitch to everyone. You really aren't a bitch & you really are a good person. I'm sorry for the harsh things you heard me say & I take back every ounce of it! I'm sorry & I'm sorry we lost a good friendship. You were a homie & I let that go because of a guy. Sorry ]=

Grad preps

ARE A DRAAAAGGGG. WASTE OF MY LIFE! But today we finally added the NHS list so I'm sitting next to people I know such as, Philleeeep & Lauren! Ha shit was funny playing some gaaaames to pass the time. Ohhh Toots. really though, WHO FARTED?! Haaaaa! But yeah! Today freaking EVERYONE wore a Laker jersey today! So AFTER Lakers win on Thursday, we will once again wear our jersey's on Friday! After grad practices, finished choreographing the MR. DRHS dance. Haha it's really ridiculous. But yeah! Then had no phone but DUST was at school. So we chilled with Best & some others for a little:

Blahhhhzay.
Hahahahahahahahahahhaha! Soo funny looking.

Then after a little photo-sesh @ Best's casa, we picked up Dust's sister. His car was STUCK again. But got to see them Walnuts & my TWINZIE! Mmm thennnn back to Dust's to drop off his sister, pick up a Guppie's To-Go, back to his casa, watched Disturbia, took a nap, got propane for the grill, got Taco Bell, spent 30 at Taco Bell, they didn't have what I ordered- FML, dropped off at home, took a shower & learned Love Story & New Soul on the piano & a part of With You! Haha I've decided I'm gonna get addicted to playing piano AGAIN.

Tomorrow: More grad practices & sports day?! Downnnnn.

RELIEVED.

AP testing is DONE for me. & omggggg SENIOR YEAR is just OVER FOR ME NOW. Haha 2nd period we just sit & talk about MR. DRHS! 3rd we play pictionary, battleship, guess who, and connect 4. 4th period we are doing presentations (which btw, I did my longlonglonggg time ago). 5th period the biggest bullshit class to ever come through Diamond Ranch & 6th CHEER. Haha! Well my life has been fabulousoooo except for the stress coming out of those AP tests, but now that they're OVER, I can just take a breathe & enjoy the rest of senior year. A couple up-coming events I am excited for:

• Walnut PROMMMM! Likey my dressss & just LOVE getting ready for dances.
• Graduation!
• GRAD NIGHT!
• LOWKEY kickback. Ha well shit's gonna end up being HIGHKEY but FUCK IT, I'm Irish.
  
• MR. DRHS held by your one & only DR cheerleaders [= LOVE all the boys! Some boys are sad & complained to my coach so some were ACCEPTED! Hahaha [= & I'm just SO excited for all their talents & whatno. OH, ha. Let me explain it. BASICALLY Mr. DRHS is a male beauty pageat held by the cheerleaders for senior boys ONLY. They will have an introduction dance such as this:

So yeah SO EXCITED. The music we put together is a combination of EVERY superhero song ya could THINK of! & there's talent, formal wear or *secret identity- theme is SUPERHEROES* along with an interview, an obstacle course, & just a great way tostart the end of senior year OH! & they also get to pick their MS. CONGENIALITY [=

But yeahhhh [= most of my days & weekends have been spent with Brittany & Dust. Haha AS ALWAYS.

Watched Marley & Me with Dust & Bobbbbberrrs<3She TRIPPED cause Marley was so bad. Hahahaha [=

Shitttt...
You already know...

& supported the BASEBALL boys at their parent night!
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& so today at school was AMAZING the BEST FEELING ever after taking that AP Lit test which I found WAAAAY easier than what I expected. DID nothing in any of my classes except take some notes in 5th:

I was attacked. Hahaha
Damn, I guess. Ha
She didn't even know we took pictures.
Real talk. I'm his bully. ha

Ugly face CONTEST. Who won?!

Then after school, BOYS volleyball SENIOR & parent night! & of course, I held Joseph's volleyball for senior night & escorted his mother for parent night! Overall great week & tomorrow get my nails did for prom then who knows what for the night [=